My Time Will Come

Ever have those moments where you're extremely happy for someone you care about, are excited they're getting exactly what they want, and wholeheartedly know that they're worth every ounce of the joy they're experiencing . . . yet are a tad bit sad (and jealous even) that you're not in their shoes, experiencing those same great feelings in your life? Well, I think I've found myself there today as my dearest friend has found herself floating on the highest cloud with a sweet man who treats her well and at this point, is a Prince Charming through and through. And here I sit in my own fog of bewilderment and ambiguity, watching in awe and excitement as she floats above me, and wondering when my time will come to soar high? And even though I ask this question, I truly believe (and know that I know) I know the answer. My time will come when it is meant to come. I may not have an exact date written down in the books (as I prefer them to be--I'm such an analyst), however usually things don't work out that way. Look at my dear friend, Debbie, for example . . . she wasn't anticipating anything and then WHAM! she flew into the sky quicker than anyone might think. It was practically overnight. So that leads me to consider my life, and realize the possibility of something amazing happening tomorrow is great. And if tomorrow is not the day, the next day might be, or even the day after that . . . as I told Debbie (I'm so smart), there is no set timeline for these things. Right?

So knowing all this, why do I let my mind take me to that place of sadness and jealously (even though it's minute and short-lived), where it seems there is no hope? I know that is as far from the truth as possible, so it's silly to even go there. My best guess is that these feelings mean one thing--I am human. And for that I am grateful. Feelings such as this verify that I am alive and am a wonderful, active, strong being that is truly LIVING my life, and EXPERIENCING all life has to offer. I have more than just an inkling that it's times like these that make the floating-high-in-the-sky moments so amazing. After all, how would we know to appreciate the light of the sun if we didn't ever experience the darkness of night?

And no matter how dark the sky may be, in my world there are bright stars sparkling overhead. Perhaps they've been placed there to remind me just how blessed I am . . . in good times and the even better times to come.

Yes. My time will come. I am sure of it. :)

Back on track and ahead full steam!

Alrighty . . . I'm ready to leave the dark gloom of last week in the past and look forward to the bright and sunny days ahead. I don't know what may be in front of me, however I do know that it's my choice to have fun with whatever (and whoever) comes my way. 2006 is still my year . . . I can feel it . . . and I have no doubt I'm going to create some amazing things. After all, the first month and a half have already brought me more than I had hoped, and I've proven time and time again nothing will slow me down. I AM a brilliant, loveable, SEXY woman enthusiastically accepting my greatness now, and nothing--I repeat NOTHING--changes that!!

All this pink and red is turning me GREEN . . .

Ok, so Valentine's Day is right around the corner . . . less than a week to be exact. And quite frankly, I'm already sick of it. Although I'm not into commercialized holidays anyways, this one is especially annoying, especially this year and I think I know why.
First of all, it's the one day day of the year where singles are singled out and sometimes ostracized even, simply because they have not found the relationship worthy of them yet or have, in some cases, for whatever reason chosen to remain single. It doesn't seem fair or very friendly. Talk about lack of brotherly love out there. Secondly, it seems to me that females in particular start to act very strange around this time of the year, as they seem to await some amazing gift or some thoughtful comment from their significant other that they hope will spin their life around and make them float even higher on the already high cloud they're sitting on. Now I don't want to be a grinch about all of this (although he is green, too), however I want to know why it isn't possible to celebrate the love between couples each and every day of the year? Why do we have to set up a special holiday for such a time, when it seems to me that the union between two persons can and should be recognized more frequently than once a year? And for those who know me best, I think those little gifts and thoughtful comments should be exchanged more often, too. Does this make sense?
I understand perhaps I feel so strongly about all of this right now because I am single this year and don't have anyone in particular to put in a little effort to make the day a special one for me, however I'm not asking for that. I want a special person in my life the other 364 days, too, and look forward to the day when each of those days will hold as much significance for me as February 14th now holds for so many others. Until then, though, I guess Tuesday will just be another day. And have fun, I will. :)

Movin' and a Shakin'

So things have been all over the place in my world lately, which is a sign that above all, I'm alive. :) Between the crazyness I've been experiencing at work, the roller coaster I've been on regarding my personal relationships, reconnecting with old friends, and the fun I've had with loved ones celebrating birthdays and eating ice cream (yes, I do celebrate for the special event of eating ice cream) . . . things have been "Whoo-Busy!!" That's ok, though, because great things are definitely happening as a result of the chaos. For example, I was named Staff of the Quarter at work, was given a raise in pay, have had a blast with Debbie doing this and that and eveything in between, am growing in the relationship arena and learning tons, am working out on a regular basis and am getting closer and closer to my physical goals for the year, and am taking the time I need to spend time with myself and nurture the goddess within. :) And on top of that, I'm preparing for a self-esteem and leadership seminar for kids which I will be chiefing (in other words, I'm the leader) in April. So the busy fun continues . . .

That's about it for now, although I'm sure there's more to come!! Here we go . . .